you know to expect bad crap. so the question " Good news first or bad news?" should be answered with GOOD NEWS!

sooo.... here's the good news:

1. i got my internet back.


yep that's it.

BAD SHIT!


well for starters i am sick as all hell. i've been out of school all week long and i now have a bagillion things to do for make-up work. next thing is that i fail at life. i can't sing on sunday for acapella and it is all because of my stupid cold. (my voice is all effed up) and i'm really extremely depressed. i'm thinking about him (you all know who i'm talking about), hell i haven't stopped thinking about him! Dammit i like him way too much. and besides i think he likes someone else. she is better looking than i am so i wouldn't blame him for liking her more. she a little more outgoing than i am and i think she likes him too. *sigh* if you had seen what i saw at ANECF, and heard (or thought i heard) on the NYC trip.... you'd start thinking the same too. at ANECF he gave me this look. i didn't know how to decipher it. so now i am thinking those thoughts. is he only going with me bcuz he feels bad and doesn't want to hurt my feelings by saying no?? does he pity me???? *sigh* idk. but all i do know is that friendship is where things will probably stay. who am i kidding? he doesn't like me like that. the hollow feeling and void sensation in heart are returning once more. most likely it will stay.